I forget sometimes that I live in a GLBTQ Mecca compared to, like, everywhere....
I identify as queer now, but when I first started becoming aware of my sexuality, I identified as bisexual. Actually, I was aware that I was bisexual before I even knew what that was. I remember a time when I lived in ignorant bliss and had no idea people would treat me different or even that it was something to hide (I was raised by older people and I was a bit sheltered until I was about twelve. They also encourage my tomboyishness).
Then I told my older cousin about my first kiss and how she was ~so cool~, needless to say he freaked. That was the first time I felt different, like I didn't have anywhere to fit in. It just got worse after that. I thought certainly my church of almost 10 years would still accept me and when that didn't work out I thought the gay community would. But oh, since I wasn't *completely* gay I didn't belong there either....now I say bullocks to it all.
In short, I'm trying to say I'm right there with you. I sure don't know exactly what prompted this rant but I do know the frustration your expressing here.
Also queer is queer. Period. Identifying as queer means your sexuality and/or gender identity either can't be labeled, or you don't want it to be. There aren't levels of queerness one qualifies for, and I'd love to smack people who think that.
IMO queer should be a term that includes all non100% straight people. It shouldn't be a term of exclusion. But yeah ~*~rambling~*~
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Verbose is an aspiration, not an insult.....
Date: 2008-04-08 05:13 pm (UTC)I identify as queer now, but when I first started becoming aware of my sexuality, I identified as bisexual. Actually, I was aware that I was bisexual before I even knew what that was. I remember a time when I lived in ignorant bliss and had no idea people would treat me different or even that it was something to hide (I was raised by older people and I was a bit sheltered until I was about twelve. They also encourage my tomboyishness).
Then I told my older cousin about my first kiss and how she was ~so cool~, needless to say he freaked. That was the first time I felt different, like I didn't have anywhere to fit in. It just got worse after that. I thought certainly my church of almost 10 years would still accept me and when that didn't work out I thought the gay community would. But oh, since I wasn't *completely* gay I didn't belong there either....now I say bullocks to it all.
In short, I'm trying to say I'm right there with you. I sure don't know exactly what prompted this rant but I do know the frustration your expressing here.
Also queer is queer. Period. Identifying as queer means your sexuality and/or gender identity either can't be labeled, or you don't want it to be. There aren't levels of queerness one qualifies for, and I'd love to smack people who think that.
IMO queer should be a term that includes all non100% straight people. It shouldn't be a term of exclusion. But yeah ~*~rambling~*~
Also: serial monogamy FTW \0/